Let me start this with the requisite "happy new year" wish.
There, now that I have that out of the way, let me get real. As I write this, my life is mired in uncertainty and I'm filled with anxiety. 2 years ago I had a job that I thought I'd retire with, we had more than enough money coming in and while there was stress in my life, I felt pretty good about life in general. Shortly thereafter, I was laid off from said job, thus the uncertainty and anxiety. I don't have a technical education (somehow I ended up with a BA in English and a Master's in Leadership, not exactly what anybody is looking for these days...) so it's been a bitch finding something in this economy. To make matters more stressful, my husband has recently began traveling for business so I'm single-momming it much of the time, and yes, I'm pretty sure I made that word up.
My answer for 2013, I've settled into a part-time retail job that I love (yes, I've found there is no shame in the retail gig, I love my co-workers, I love the clothes I get to play with, I love our customers, the flexible hours work for my life) and I'm going to focus on building my fitness empire, one class at a time. It's a roller coaster, and at my age, those mostly make me nauseous so not a day goes by that doubt doesn't creep in a little, but not a day goes by that I don't get the feeling that I'm doing exactly what I was put on this earth to do. All the battles I've fought in my life have brought me exactly to where I am at exactly this moment and I'm not always convinced that I'm ready to do this but I am convinced that this is something I have to do... no. matter. what.
So I'm all in. By New Year's Day 2014, I will be able to look back at a year of highs (and lows, I'm sure, I'm not Pollyanna), I will be able to look back at the most incredible year of my life...
no. matter. what.
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